February Is A Bitch Of A Month
So, I believe that Seasonal Affective Disorder exists. I really do. February just wears me out and I find myself being a person I don’t necessarily like. I like myself just fine usually, but when February hits, I feel like a mess. It’s hard to stay focused and I find myself kind of floating around.
I’m usually pretty optimistic. But not so much lately.
Yesterday, Tammy Lynette and I went and had a late lunch at this great restaurant in Martin called The Opera House (go there if ever you come to Martin). It was very positive and for the first time in weeks, I felt a little better about things. And I think the Lifehacker guy has it right. Maybe I have been suffering from Information Fatigue Syndrome. But Tammy Lynette sort of put it into perspective for me. She does that sometimes and it was mucho appreciated. We talked business and I felt pretty good about it all as she was very encouraging with this internet upgrade thing that’s been driving me up a tree.
During February (the bitch of the month that she is) I always get a little down. I have felt recently like the Holly Hunter character in Broadcast News, where I have to schedule myself a little mini-breakdown once every couple of days.
See, things have been stressful but on the other hand and I do believe that I have been what I like to call “situationally depressed”, it’s me as a whole that’s the issue. It’s absolutely me that is the the problem, and what a hard pill to swallow that is. Now, for those of you who know me, I’m a pretty laid-back person. I can go all Type-A in 2.2 seconds, but most of the time I laugh easily and I’m fine.
During the SAD month, the person I become is not someone I’m fond of. And if you aren’t fond of yourself, that who else wants to be around you.
Usually, I’d be chomping at the bit over things like this, but today, not so much.
I even thought about taking a hiatus from blogging for awhile, but Homer and Squirrel Queen said “NO.” I think it’s because they know I’ll talk their ears off with my self-induced pity party.
So, alas, I whined this morning. I’ll be over it soon and I can already start to see the sun shining a bit, but in all honesty, I’ll be really glad when March 1 gets here.
But February. Man, it wears me out and I guess I just needed a bit of a blog venting.
ugh, SAD is the reason I hit the tanning bed, even if it is once every couple of weeks. The UV rays help me somehow. Maybe you could try that (with lots of sunscreen)
[...] My Newscoma sayeth: So, I believe that Seasonal Affective Disorder exists. I really do. February just wears me out and I find myself being a person I don’t necessarily like. I like myself just fine usually, but when February hits, I feel like a mess. It’s hard to stay focused and I find myself kind of floating around. [...]
I’ve been feeling it since early January, and totally unable to put it into words. I often find hope in February, but this year I just feel like I’m going to drown.
Just know that you aren’t the only one. And it will get better.
I, too, am a SAD sufferer. This part of California is known for it’s foggy days during the winter. What helps me…I know this sounds dumb, but it really works…tanning. 10 minutes in the tanning bed a couple of times a week. I think it’s the light…or maybe the tan lines. Either way, it keeps me smiling when I just don’t want to. Only another week until MARCH!!
There’s 2 votes for hitting the fake-n-bake!
Cheer up, your new site looks great!
Coma,
I have always had my pity party on the day when daylight savings time ends. From then until December 21, I grit my teeth and say grrr as it gets darker and darker. This year, I was in an especially good humor on the winter solstice because I read on a blog about a West Coast activist old hippie couple who suggested that everyone experience an orgasm on that day which they hoped would create so much positive energy it would induce world peace. I definitely calendared that one in my Franklin Covey planner as a “big rock”.
But then, after the holidays were over, there it was – January . Blah….Then February, with that cold snap, was just the limit.
But about 7-10 days ago, I noticed as I looked out my office window at the Mississippi that it was still light, and I mean really light, at 5:45. Now, there is so much light and it’s warmed up, and the daffodils are blooming and the flowering almonds, and I’m all happy because the end (of winter) is in sight.
Rented Groundhog Day from Netflix, if you haven’t seen it, it may be just the ticket to keep your pick me up going. “So, put your little hand in mine…”
I like the new look, too.
desi
Thanks everyone. I appreciate the kind words.
Hay, baby. Whatcha doin’, aftah?
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It’s the shortest, coldest month for a reason.
However, it’s 70 in Memphis and Spring Training has started, so hold on just a bit, the best is yet to come…
I’m a Cardinals fan. Am I still in the cool kids club?
Thanks again guys, I will gratefully accept pints of good beer next time I see you fine people.
I suffer from SAD also….as I’m sure tons of people do. I’ve noticed it seems to be a lot worse this winter than last. But since we had a couple of days of warmth and sunshine, I’ve felt 100% better.
I agree.
A little sun does a world of good.
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Kat Von D
I Googled for something completely different, but found your page…and have to say thanks. nice read.