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We Fight Because We Have To

March 28, 2007 - Author: newscoma - Comments are closed

I’m going to go to work in a few minutes. The Groovy Chicks From Work have been very sympathetic to my headache from hell and the puking that has accompanied it. Puking is such a gross word. I may need to rethink writing it in the future.

What a sexy beast I am.

Anyway, I was thinking of activism. I used to aggressively pursue legislation in helping battered women and sexually and physically abused children. I’ve wrote the grant to bring Domestic Violence services to my little part of the world here. I’m very proud of this although after time my emotional well-being needed to be nurtured and I left after working in such a world filled with pain. I was burned out so I passed the torch. It’s now run by people who are fresher than I am. We lobbied to get laws changed where women and kids would have a fighting chance to get out of their homes safely. When I started in DV work, sometimes batterers would just be given a summons to appear in court. Then, he’d go back in and give his wife/girlfriend/partner another ass-whupping. Now there is a cooling off period.

We did work that I thought was of value. It helped people. I did this for years. Along with some other beautiful and wickedly smart men and women, we did get some things done in the legislature and I’m proud of what we did.

I say that to say this. I’ve noticed that the blogosphere is a wonderful place to present grassroots efforts. An example that comes to mind is the attention given to the Claudia Nunez case back last fall. On the other hand, anyone who puts their views out into the blogosphere is, in some cases on more controversial issues, immediately labeled. And that bothers me. One is automatically a wingnut or a moonbat if the issues even have a sniff of what “the other side (for lack of a better term)” believes is partisan.

In working to create a better world for battered women, it was always an uphill battle. We had to deal with labeling and prejudice. I was constantly told these statements from more people than I could even count. Statements like “They ALWAYS go back” (which is not necessarily true and although some women do return, I can write you a fifty page dissertation on why the emotions create lines of fear that make women return to their abusers. Another statement I’d get a lot of is “What did she do to make him so mad?”

Huh. Adults do not have the right to discipline another adult. That is crap, my friends. I still reel years later from that comment and sadly, I still hear it today.

Some fine men and women fought these stereotypes and worked for fair and equitable change that laws would be adhered to in giving these women and children a chance. The question we started to present for legislators to understand what we meant was one that we hoped they’d ponder. We talked about love. No woman I’ve worked with ever put in their dairy when they were 12 years old with romantic hopes of finding Mister Right that they hoped he would beat the shit out of her. Serial batterers are usually very charming during the opening of relationships. Many times, the abuse came later. And remember, batterers don’t always abuse. This is called a cycle of violence. And abuse isn’t just physical. Emotional abuse can be just as dangerous. When a woman is told everyday more than once that “They are stupid” or “Lousy in bed, “I’ll take the children” or “No one will ever have you” sort of comments, it creates deep wounds.

Why am I writing this this morning when I should be headed to work? Because I was one of those women who married a great guy who tormented me. He had a good job,always wore a suit and wined and dined me to the point my head swirled. I never saw any indication that he was abusive. He was Prince Charming.

Three weeks after we got married, I had a black eye. He swore he’d never do it again and it was a one-time thing. I thought I was in love. I believed him. About two months later, he started throwing dishes at me because, ironically, I didn’t load the dishwasher the way he thought it should be loaded, and one cut the back side of my calf open into the meat of my leg. I still have the scar. I left. I was shocked. I had no idea, saw no indication that this was coming. He told me all those horrible statements I wrote about above.

I thought it was me. Being that I had good friends and a wonderful family who cried foul when I FINALLY disclosed to them what was going on (I was so embarrassed and freaked out), I left the third and final time and this time I was issued a beating of astronomical proportions. There was some internal damage.

I left. He refused to sign the divorce papers. He said he owned me.

Over time (two years later when he finally signed them and Big Daddy threatened to kill him with me screaming that this jackass wasn’t worth it), I started to heal.

So, today, I’m asking you to put the labels aside. And, hopefully this explains why I do believe in the mantra of “Let’s talk about it.” People do things because of whom they are.

Not everything can be fit into a nice box. We all have our war wounds. And sometimes we fight because we don’t have a choice. We have to.

It keeps us sane.

For more information in Tennessee, go here:

Tennessee Coalition Against Domestic and Sexual Violence
P.O. Box 120972
Nashville, TN 37212
(615) 386-9406 Fax: (615) 383-2967
(800) 289-9018 In State
Website: www.tcadsv.org
Email: tcadsv@tcadsv.org

Here’s chart that we used while I was training concerned citizens on how to start their own support group. I hope it will give some insight.

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Thanks for listening.

Categories: Domestic Violence

Discussion (No Comments)

  1. I’ve been so lucky with my husband. We have fights, but we’re more likely to not talk until we do talk and then work it out. I’m so thankful that you got out of that marriage. You could’ve told me about this in your wrinkle story! Thank you for sharing the info and chart.

  2. […] Go read Newscoma’s post about her own experiences with domestic violence. Save a copy of her chart she provides (print it!) so you can arm yourself or your loved ones against this happening to them. […]

  3. by malia

    I really liked how you said, “Not everything can be fit into a nice box”. So true, so profound.

  4. by txbluebonnet

    Kudos on a fine blog posting. I have been a victim of DV – not once, but twice! I can laugh about my being so stupid to do it all over again now while I am advocating for victims of domestic violence in the great State of Texas, but I sure didn’t see it then. :)

    We are having our own stories of DV developing daily. Two of the most gruesome just happened about a week ago in Houston. One has made the news; the other is advocating for something more to be done.

    Keep up the good work!! We need lots more people like you in hopes that we reach all the victims of DV to help them break the cycle and empower them to move forward….

  5. As the granddaughter of a woman who walked out on a sorry sonofabitch in 1948 after he finally beat her so hard “you could track her by the blood in the snow” (according to the neighbor who testified in their divorce) and proceeded to raise seven fine kids, including four nonabusive boys, alone, I salute, praise and toast you, ‘coma.

    I’m sorry you had to go through it. I’m thankful you’re still here to tell us, and I’m thankful you provided the chart. My grandfather met each and every one of those criteria; one of his granddaughter’s husbands already has met two-thirds of them.

  6. You are such and important part of this here blogosphere.

    And I’ll kill a man that says otherwise…

  7. You’re very brave to put your story out here like this, ‘Coma. I too salute you for the work you’ve done to champion abused women. You amaze me more every day!

  8. Wow. I’ve been involved in my own drama today, and I just got home and saw this. Very powerful.

    All I have to offer is a talent for writing prose, musical skills, public speaking skills, and maybe a little money.

    I offer whatever I have to help in your cause.

  9. […] Newscoma has an honest, gut-wrenching and informative post about domestic violence. […]

  10. […] women very, very close to me have had to endure what Newscoma is talking about today: Some fine men and women fought these stereotypes and worked for fair and equitable change that […]

  11. […] by Rachel on March 28th, 2007 Newscoma’s post, “We Fight Because We Have To,” is a brave and compelling tale of her work against domestic violence and the personal […]

  12. by Donna Locke

    I asked my state rep and state senator, Tom DuBois and Bill Ketron, to sponsor a tough anti-stalking bill to protect women, and they did. It was passed, but with some watering down.

  13. Newscoma,
    I am so very proud of you for writing what you did. It’s important to come forward about abuse and let others know they aren’t alone.
    I am deeply sorry you had to go through this. Obviously nothing is worth being abused, but thank goodness you used your bad experiences to help others.

    hugs and kisses,
    Sharon

  14. A powerful post, ‘Coma..
    I too, was emotionally abused by my 1st husband.. the pain that bears no visible scars. And when I was finally brave enough to walk away, no one could understand why! I was even kicked out of my church. I later would tell people that when we divorced, he got custody of my ‘family & friends’..
    What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, indeed.
    How freeing when we empower ourselves w/ our own worthiness.

  15. Relationships can be so complicated. Throw in an abusive spouse and it is plain dangerous. I am glad you got away safe. Thanks for telling us about your pain, it helps everyone to hear these kind of stories, and it helps you get your head clear. I call it a win/win!

  16. Wow, I had no idea. And much like Jed said, I am just glad you got away safely. :: hugs :: to you.

    I had a co-worker who stayed in a relationship like that for over 25 years before finally getting out of it. It is something I think most people, including myself, have so much difficulty understanding why it would go on and on like that, but she absolutely for that long did not think she had any choice.

  17. Thank you so much for sharing your story, sweetheart.

    I have a dear friend who is just getting out of an abusive relationship after having the crap beat out of her twice (broken ribs, cracked pelvis, shattered self-esteem). It is hard but so necessary to speak publicly about abuse. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

  18. Sadly your story is all too common. Thanks for having the courage to share.

  19. […] Sen. Alexander, these programs are important. They help a lot of people, because 20 years ago, they helped someone like me. […]

  20. by holly

    I didn’t know. I love you.